As I write this post I have 1 week until I go to university and the thought is both simultaneously one of excitement and equally one of terror. The fact that in only 7 days my whole life is going to change completely is quite a scary thought and the amount of change that is about to come fills me with excitement and anxiety.
On the one hand, I am completely ready to move onto university. I’ve spent 3 months off of school and, as someone who enjoys learning and school, I’m ready to start learning the next thing. I’ve had an amazing summer – I’ve been to Amsterdam, Dublin and Leeds and spent so much time with friends and family. I’ve experienced the rush of emotions that comes with results day and have been out and bought the entirety of IKEA and an enormous supply of kitchen stuff that I have no idea how to use. But.. I’ve spent the last 2 weeks at home bored as I’ve run out of things to do and I’m ready for the challenge of university, and therefore I’m hugely looking forward to it. I’ve been talking to people in my accommodation and course that I’m so excited to actually meet them and begin the uni experience!
However, the flip side of the feelings of excitement are the feelings of nervousness. I’m naturally a very shy person so the thought of having to actually socialise with strangers is a scary one. I’m not the biggest drinker or a late-night person so freshers week could be quite daunting – I’m hoping to find the people who are like me stood in a corner wishing they could be in bed cause that is almost definitely what I’m going to be doing. Although I’m quite an independent person and when my parents tell me they’re going away for a while it’s the best news, I’m still nervous about actually living alone. I’m praying that I don’t end up giving myself food poisoning by the end of the first week. If I’m still alive by Christmas it will be a miracle. I have some amazing friends either going off to uni themselves or having a gap year that I will miss a lot, but hopefully we’ll keep in touch and I’ll see them when I’m back.
University is going to be an experience. I’m looking forward to learning new skills, studying for a degree that interests me, living alone and in a completely new place and making new friends. It won’t be without its difficulties but it’s something that I’m going to embrace and by the end of 3 years I’ll actually have to start doing something with my life which is an even scarier thought…!